Ok, lets drop the chit-chat and lets fuckin' go to the point... its a bit hard for me to ask help and guidance since i've been dealing with stuff on my own! damnit! im sure most of the people friends, kakilala, katambayan, kabarkada, kainuman, kagimikan, kasama sa katarantaduhan, ka iskwela, kasama sa laro, ka flirt, classmate, schoolmate, etc. knew me as a happy go lucky guy. un tipong, masayahin, laging kwela, laging maloko, minsan sabog, makulit, magulo, palatawa, etc. pero to dumating tong point na kelangan ko ng suggestions at comments.



yes, im that shit over there in the crowd. yup, im always in the crowd. lots of friends, lots of adventures, lots of experience, and lots of headache.

ONE:



Alot of girls go gaga-googoo over me and some of the guys go kaboom! WTF!? its not my fault yah fucking dickheads! if ya'll are man enough to say your feelings 'bout them, and act like a real guy then sana hindi sila naghahanap ng ibang lalake dba? tangina daming lalake dyan, putcha ako pa! binibigyan nyo ko sakit ng ulo! kayong mga ungas acts like a retard! tangina nyo, malay ko bang crush nyo ung mga nagkakagusto skin! eh sa ako gusto nila eh, anong magagawa ko? Mga tarantado pala kayo, pinatulan ko ba? 9 lahat sila, pero wala akong pinatulan kahit isa sa kanila! bullshit! matuto kayo manligaw mga inutil! ako kaibigan nila ako at kaibigan ko rin sila, hanggang dun nalang yun mga pare! kaya wag kayo mag selos mga bobo't hunghang!

TWO:



Some of my friends wants me to play WoW (world of warcraft) - an online game
some of them wants me to play Ragnarok, another online game aswell
some of them wants me to join them on their games. iba iba napakadami ayoko ilista
some of my friends wants me to go with them on a chick hunt, tangina d ko gawain maghanap ng babae. Napakadami sa paligid, d nyo na kelangan maghanap pa! bulag ba kyo? o tanga? baka tanga kayo noh?



some of them wants me to be active on my Fraternity. FUCK! im already inactive and im done fighting with other lame people. frat war, resbakan, gang war, trip trip, etc. alam ko lakas ko at alam ko kakayahan ko, kaya kong pumatay at naka pag hospital na ko ng 3 kaaway ko, kaya please lang, tigilan nyo na ko irecruit uli! ayoko na maging ksama sa ganyan. do me a favor and GROW UP!



some of my friends wants me to do DRUGS. well, tagal na ko nag quit. hahaha 1 month na pero kayang kaya na! ayoko na, tama na. walang kwenta yan mga dudes and dudettes... wag nyo na ko pilitin pa. someday ikamamatay nyo rin yan, ya'll pathetic shitheads friends of mine, makinig kayo sakin for once! minsan lang ako magseryoso mga gago!

TANGINANG PEER PRESSURE YAN! PUTCHA!

THREE:




Where is my fuckin' band?! mag paramdam naman! wala ng contact sa isa't isa! si kent lang ang natitirang contact ko! ASAN NA KAYOOOO! asan na panaginip natin mga pre? iniwan na ba natin ng parang bula? give up na ba lahat? kaya pa namin dalawa, nasan na kayong tatlo? tangina ninyo! noong umalis ako, napabalik nyo ako. ngayon nawawala kayo, hindi namin kayo mahagilap! saang sulok ng mundo ba kayo pumasok? give me a fuckin' sign damnit!

FOUR:




Alot of concerned people, friends, relatives, loveones, close to my heart, barkada, gimik buddies at iba iba pa wants me to believe the "invisible man". WHERE THE FUCK IS HE? watching again? is that what he always do? manood ng manood? poootangina anong klaseng diyos yan? tangina lahat ng tao naghihirap! ako nag hihirap! mga mahal ko sa buhay nag hihirap! pagsubok lang yan? ULOL! mga walang kwentang tao at mga makasalanan yumayaman at umaasenso! masaya sila sa buhay nila. pero kaming mga matino at nagpapakatino at mga maayos ang buhay ay patuloy na bumabagsak pababa. mapa trabaho, skwela, buhay at iba pa. marami pang bagay na pwedeng pagusapan, kaya hindi ko hahabaan tong pang apat na to!

IM A SATANIST!
SATANIST'S ARE BORN, NOT MADE!
I WAS BORN TO BE A SATANIST!
ALL YOU ASSHOLES SHOULD SCREW YOURSELVES!
you cant change my belief and you cant make me be one of you fuckers.
sorry pero kahit kaibigan ko kayong mga nagpupumilit na ibahin paniniwala ko, kelangan ko kayong murahin, dahil what ya'll doin' is FUTILE! GAGO BA KYO?

FIVE:




I'm gettin tired of STUDY STUDY STUDY..
I'm gettin tired of WORK WORK WORK..
I'm gettin tired of TAMBAY TAMBAY TAMBAY..
I'm gettin tired of GIMIK GIMIK GIMIK..

Shit.. what the fuck is happening...
Got no work for the meantime.. meaning, got no extra cash to keep and to spend. GRAAARRR!!!
My pc is busted! where the fuck should i get cash to buy or to fix this shit!? HOW CAN I FINISH MY THESIS AND HOW CAN I DO SCHOOL STUFF WELL!? tangina sawa na ko manghiram ng pc, sawa na rin ako pumunta sa bahay ng mga kaibigan ko para makigamit! tangina!!! my parents business is goin' down.. crap! WALA NA KO PERA PUTCHA! everything revolves on money. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it!
AND WHERES MY FUCKIN' CAR!? DAMNIT!
Ako nanaman ba magbabayad sa TUITION KO NEXT TERM!? shiiiiiiit!
BAD VIBES poootcha! sinisira ng lahat ng problema ko style ko! ARGHHH!!

LAHAT natutulungan ko... pero sarili ko, hindi ko matulungan.. nagpatong patong na. TANGINANG PAKSYET!



*sigh* wise comments, advice and suggestions are highly much appreciated...
i really fuckin' need some help. this is my 1st shitty time to ask for help... i usually handle all of my problems, stress, hassle shits on my own.. I'm really serious about this time. minsan lang ako magseryoso, sana seryosohin nyo rin comments, advice at suggestions nyo.

i need to find myself again... im gettin' tired of everything.