I maybe sad and lonely by this time. but sharin' this music to you wont hurt a bit.
I dont sing mushy love songs, sad cheesy stuff and emo shit...
I wanted to sing and dance this song wit' yah.
goodvibes for yah. goodvibes for everyone aswell.
dance and sing while havin' fun. thats the way it should be..

this is for you...





The way you look at me
The way you touch me
The fire in your eyes
I swear it Makes me shiver inside
There's nothing I can do about it
'Cause nothing seems so true
When I'm beside you
And my dream
Of all thing is all in my hand
Naked, perfect, so beautiful
You turn me up and down
I was spinning round and round
You never get enough, baby you don't
You're a shining star

The way you look at me
The way you touch me
The fire in your eyes
I swear it makes me shiver inside
There's nothing I can do about it
You're my soulmate, my summer and my faith
You fill me up with love
Your kisses are better than wine
There's nothing I want more than you, girl

The way you look at me
The way you touch me
The fire in your eyes
I swear it makes me shiver inside
There's nothing I can do about it
You're my soulmate, my summer and my faith
You fill me up with love
Your kisses are better than wine
There's nothing I want more than you, girl
You turn me up and down
I was spinning round and round
You never get enough, baby you don't
You're a shining star

The way you look at me
The way you touch me
The fire in your eyes
I swear it makes me shiver inside
There's nothing I can do about it
You're my soulmate, my summer and my faith
You fill me up with love
Your kisses are better than wine
There's nothing I want more than you, girl

You're my soulmate, my summer and my faith
You fill me up with love
Your kisses are better than wine
There's nothing I want more than you, girl

Ok, lets drop the chit-chat and lets fuckin' go to the point... its a bit hard for me to ask help and guidance since i've been dealing with stuff on my own! damnit! im sure most of the people friends, kakilala, katambayan, kabarkada, kainuman, kagimikan, kasama sa katarantaduhan, ka iskwela, kasama sa laro, ka flirt, classmate, schoolmate, etc. knew me as a happy go lucky guy. un tipong, masayahin, laging kwela, laging maloko, minsan sabog, makulit, magulo, palatawa, etc. pero to dumating tong point na kelangan ko ng suggestions at comments.



yes, im that shit over there in the crowd. yup, im always in the crowd. lots of friends, lots of adventures, lots of experience, and lots of headache.

ONE:



Alot of girls go gaga-googoo over me and some of the guys go kaboom! WTF!? its not my fault yah fucking dickheads! if ya'll are man enough to say your feelings 'bout them, and act like a real guy then sana hindi sila naghahanap ng ibang lalake dba? tangina daming lalake dyan, putcha ako pa! binibigyan nyo ko sakit ng ulo! kayong mga ungas acts like a retard! tangina nyo, malay ko bang crush nyo ung mga nagkakagusto skin! eh sa ako gusto nila eh, anong magagawa ko? Mga tarantado pala kayo, pinatulan ko ba? 9 lahat sila, pero wala akong pinatulan kahit isa sa kanila! bullshit! matuto kayo manligaw mga inutil! ako kaibigan nila ako at kaibigan ko rin sila, hanggang dun nalang yun mga pare! kaya wag kayo mag selos mga bobo't hunghang!

TWO:



Some of my friends wants me to play WoW (world of warcraft) - an online game
some of them wants me to play Ragnarok, another online game aswell
some of them wants me to join them on their games. iba iba napakadami ayoko ilista
some of my friends wants me to go with them on a chick hunt, tangina d ko gawain maghanap ng babae. Napakadami sa paligid, d nyo na kelangan maghanap pa! bulag ba kyo? o tanga? baka tanga kayo noh?



some of them wants me to be active on my Fraternity. FUCK! im already inactive and im done fighting with other lame people. frat war, resbakan, gang war, trip trip, etc. alam ko lakas ko at alam ko kakayahan ko, kaya kong pumatay at naka pag hospital na ko ng 3 kaaway ko, kaya please lang, tigilan nyo na ko irecruit uli! ayoko na maging ksama sa ganyan. do me a favor and GROW UP!



some of my friends wants me to do DRUGS. well, tagal na ko nag quit. hahaha 1 month na pero kayang kaya na! ayoko na, tama na. walang kwenta yan mga dudes and dudettes... wag nyo na ko pilitin pa. someday ikamamatay nyo rin yan, ya'll pathetic shitheads friends of mine, makinig kayo sakin for once! minsan lang ako magseryoso mga gago!

TANGINANG PEER PRESSURE YAN! PUTCHA!

THREE:




Where is my fuckin' band?! mag paramdam naman! wala ng contact sa isa't isa! si kent lang ang natitirang contact ko! ASAN NA KAYOOOO! asan na panaginip natin mga pre? iniwan na ba natin ng parang bula? give up na ba lahat? kaya pa namin dalawa, nasan na kayong tatlo? tangina ninyo! noong umalis ako, napabalik nyo ako. ngayon nawawala kayo, hindi namin kayo mahagilap! saang sulok ng mundo ba kayo pumasok? give me a fuckin' sign damnit!

FOUR:




Alot of concerned people, friends, relatives, loveones, close to my heart, barkada, gimik buddies at iba iba pa wants me to believe the "invisible man". WHERE THE FUCK IS HE? watching again? is that what he always do? manood ng manood? poootangina anong klaseng diyos yan? tangina lahat ng tao naghihirap! ako nag hihirap! mga mahal ko sa buhay nag hihirap! pagsubok lang yan? ULOL! mga walang kwentang tao at mga makasalanan yumayaman at umaasenso! masaya sila sa buhay nila. pero kaming mga matino at nagpapakatino at mga maayos ang buhay ay patuloy na bumabagsak pababa. mapa trabaho, skwela, buhay at iba pa. marami pang bagay na pwedeng pagusapan, kaya hindi ko hahabaan tong pang apat na to!

IM A SATANIST!
SATANIST'S ARE BORN, NOT MADE!
I WAS BORN TO BE A SATANIST!
ALL YOU ASSHOLES SHOULD SCREW YOURSELVES!
you cant change my belief and you cant make me be one of you fuckers.
sorry pero kahit kaibigan ko kayong mga nagpupumilit na ibahin paniniwala ko, kelangan ko kayong murahin, dahil what ya'll doin' is FUTILE! GAGO BA KYO?

FIVE:




I'm gettin tired of STUDY STUDY STUDY..
I'm gettin tired of WORK WORK WORK..
I'm gettin tired of TAMBAY TAMBAY TAMBAY..
I'm gettin tired of GIMIK GIMIK GIMIK..

Shit.. what the fuck is happening...
Got no work for the meantime.. meaning, got no extra cash to keep and to spend. GRAAARRR!!!
My pc is busted! where the fuck should i get cash to buy or to fix this shit!? HOW CAN I FINISH MY THESIS AND HOW CAN I DO SCHOOL STUFF WELL!? tangina sawa na ko manghiram ng pc, sawa na rin ako pumunta sa bahay ng mga kaibigan ko para makigamit! tangina!!! my parents business is goin' down.. crap! WALA NA KO PERA PUTCHA! everything revolves on money. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it!
AND WHERES MY FUCKIN' CAR!? DAMNIT!
Ako nanaman ba magbabayad sa TUITION KO NEXT TERM!? shiiiiiiit!
BAD VIBES poootcha! sinisira ng lahat ng problema ko style ko! ARGHHH!!

LAHAT natutulungan ko... pero sarili ko, hindi ko matulungan.. nagpatong patong na. TANGINANG PAKSYET!



*sigh* wise comments, advice and suggestions are highly much appreciated...
i really fuckin' need some help. this is my 1st shitty time to ask for help... i usually handle all of my problems, stress, hassle shits on my own.. I'm really serious about this time. minsan lang ako magseryoso, sana seryosohin nyo rin comments, advice at suggestions nyo.

i need to find myself again... im gettin' tired of everything.

"i used to feel like a dial-up soul in a hi-speed world.
but i met you, and my heart got an upgrade."

-- a nice quote huh? melmel gave this to me.. err not for me, she only gave me the quote haha, cute isnt huh? --


Anyway, i havent been posting here for quite sometime already.
been busy doin' stuff. work, photography, eccomerce, topic proposal, digital video editing, thesis, gimicks, gym, etc.



im officialy quittin' on playing online games, and other pc games for the meantime.
for now, i need to focus on the reality i will face after i graduate.
btw, i made an account at multiply site aswell.
hmm bago pa lang eh haha no time to update it yet.. tinatamad pa..
dami kasing gimiks at kung ano ano pang escapades..

My Multiply Site

still workin' out, need to get those upper, lower and mid body strength in no time.

After being goody good dude for 'bout 3 years, and laylow from gimicks, nightlife temptations, bad-habits and stuff...
I find myself asking and questioning my actions.
"Putangina! Hindi sulit pagbabago at pagiging matino ko!"

Love comes and goes like the wind.
theres no permanent and theres no perfect in this world

There was this one major outbreak in my relationship which bursts anger and tears upon myself.
I have been telling the truth and loyal to her eversince. But my significant other didnt believed me at all, and that trust never existed in the first place, im pretty sure that our relationship isn't goin' to work out.
then, you'd find out that some of your "so-called Friends" was backstabbin' you already, and telling lies like theres no tomorrow.

Woooh! I pity ya'll fucktards who are not true to yourselves and to other people.
This world is sooo unreal! and im gettin' used to it.

Lots of problems lately, well i guess its part of our life.
I tried to solve and fix all of these bullshit, but in the end, i failed.
I guess, this is also one of the reasons why i havent updated my blog for awhile.
Money, school, ex, friends.. Ahh Fuck! I think my head is goin' to explode!
Where should i begin!? see! I dont even know where to start!
I even tried to run away from all of these crazyness! Goin' out, hanging out with the "Real and True" peers, drinking beer (again), killing the kid out of me, and just having fun, for me to forget the whole ordeal. then, the next day, im goin' to do it again and again and again, which is lame. Im So sick and tired of running away.

I have faced my problems, but all of them are either unsolvable or hard to deal with.
Lets face it, problems are part of our life and life is full of bullshit.
The world revolves around Money!
without Money, your useless, pathetic and imbecile.
Why?
4 subjects that i took was not credited. Goddammit! all because of money!

so what else is new?
Well i guess, im goin' back to where i started.
No more mister nice guy, No more loyalty to others, Player, Full of Cruel Intention, Warfreak, Rebel, etc.
I dont care 'bout the world or anyone around me already. just me, myself and I.
Once again, im back. and im happy with it.
Live it, Love it, Learn it, Deal with it.

whoa.. havent posted for awhile.. *ack* still busy at work.. anyways,
here are the 40 mistakes, men make during sex.
Hahahahaha! Enjoy! :)

1) NOT KISSING FIRST.
Avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get your money's worth by cutting out
nonessentials. A proper passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay.

2) BLOWING TOO HARD IN HER EAR.
Admit it, some kid at school told you girls love this. Well, there's a difference between being erotic and blowing as if you're trying to extinguish the candles on your 50th birthday cake. That hurts.

3) NOT SHAVING.
You often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin which you rake repeatedly across your partner's face and thighs. When she turns her head from side to side, it's not passion, it's avoidance.

4) SQUEEZING HER BREAST.
Most men act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness when they get their hand on a pair. Stroke, caress, and smooth them.

5) BITING HER NIPPLES.
Why do men fasten onto a woman's nipples, then clamp down like they're trying to deflate her body via her breasts? Nipples are highly sensitive. They can't stand up to chewing. Lick and suck them gently. Flicking your tongue across them is good. Pretending they're a dogie toy, isn't.

6) TWIDDLING HER NIPPLES.
Stop doing that thing where you twiddle the nipples between finger and thumb like you're trying to find a radio station in a hilly area. Focus on the whole breasts, not just the exclamation points.

7) IGNORING THE OTHER PARTS OF HER BODY.
A woman is not a highway with just three turnoffs: Breastville East and West, and the Midtown Tunnel. There are vast areas of her body which you've ignored far too often as you go bombing straight into downtown Vagina. So start paying them some attention.

8) GETTING THE HAND TRAPPED.
Poor manual dexterity in the underskirt region can result in tangled fingers and underpants. If you're going to be that aggressive, just ask her to take the damn things off.

9) LEAVING HER A LITTLE PRESENT.
Condom disposal is the man's responsibility. You wore it, you store it.

10) ATTACKING THE CLITORIS.
Direct pressure is very unpleasant, so gently rotate your fingers along side of the clitoris.

11) STOPPING FOR A BREAK.
Women, unlike men, don't pick up where they left off. If you stop, they plummet back to square one very fast. If you can tell she's not there, keep going at all costs, numb jaw or not.

12) UNDRESSING HER AWKWARDLY.
Women hate looking stupid, but stupid she will look when naked at the waist with a sweater stuck over her head. Unwrap her like an elegant present, not a kid's toy.

13) GIVING HER A WEDGIE DURING FOREPLAY.
Stroking her gently through her panties can be very sexy. Pulling the material up between her thighs and yanking it back and forth is not. ( LOL !!!! )

14) BEING OBSESSED WITH THE VAGINA.
Although most men can find the clitoris without maps, they still believe that the vagina is where it's all at. No sooner is your hand down there than you're trying to stuff stolen banknotes up a chimney. This is okay in principle, but if you're not careful, it can hurt so don't get carried away. It's best to pay more attention to her clitoris and the exterior of her vagina at first, then gently slip a finger inside her and see if she likes it.

15) MASSAGING TOO ROUGHLY.
You're attempting to give her a sensual, relaxing massage to get her in the mood. Hands and fingertips are okay; elbows and knees are not.

16) UNDRESSING PREMATURELY.
Don't force the issue by stripping before she's at least made some move toward getting your stuff off, even if it's just undoing a couple of buttons.

17) TAKING YOUR PANTS OFF FIRST.
A man in socks and underpants is at his worst. Lose the socks first.

18) GOING TOO FAST.
When you get to the penis-in-vagina situation, the worst thing you can do is pump away like an industrial power tool - she'll soon feel like an assembly-line worker made obsolete by your technology. Build up slowly, with clean, straight, regular thrusts.

19) GOING TOO HARD.
If you bash your great triangular hip bones into her thigh or stomach, the pain is equal to two weeks of horseback riding concentrated into a few seconds.

20) COMING TOO SOON.
Every man's fear. With reason. If you shoot before you see the whites of her eyes, make sure you have a backup plan to ensure her pleasure too.

21) NOT COMING SOON ENOUGH.
It may appear to you that humping for an hour without climaxing is the mark of a sex god, but to her it's more likely the mark of a numb vagina. At least buy some intriguing wall hangings, so she has something to hold her interest while you're playing Marathon Man.

22) ASKING IF SHE HAS COME.
You really ought to be able to tell. Most women make noise. But if you really don't know, don't ask

23) PERFORMING ORAL SEX TOO GENTLY.
Don't act like a giant cat at a saucer of milk. Get your whole mouth down there, and concentrate on gently rotating or flicking your tongue on her clitoris.

24) NUDGING HER HEAD DOWN.
Men persist in doing this until she's eyeball-to-penis, hoping that it will lead very swiftly to mouth-to-penis. All women hate this. It's about three steps from being dragged to a cave by their hair. If you want her to use her mouth, use yours; try talking seductively to her.

25) NOT WARNING HER BEFORE YOU CLIMAX.
Sperm tastes like sea water mixed with egg white. Not everybody likes it. When she's performing oral sex, warn her before you come so she can do what's necessary.

26) MOVING AROUND DURING FELLATIO.
Don't thrust. She'll do all the moving during fellatio. You just lie there. And don't grab her head.

27) TAKING ETIQUETTE ADVICE FROM PORN MOVIES.
In X-rated movies, women seem to love it when men ejaculate over them. In real life, it just means more laundry to do.

28) MAKING HER RIDE ON TOP FOR AGES.
Asking her to be on top is fine. Lying there grunting while she does all the hard work is not. Caress her gently, so that she doesn't feel quite so much like the captain of a schooner. And let her have a rest.

29) ATTEMPTING ANAL SEX AND PRETENDING IT WAS AN ACCIDENT.
This is how men earn a rep*tation for not being able to follow directions. If you want to put it there, ask her first. And don't think that being drunk is an excuse.

30) TAKING PICTURES.
When a man says, "Can I take a photo of you?" she'll hear the words" to show my buddies." At least let her have custody of them.

31) NOT BEING IMAGINATIVE ENOUGH.
Imagination is anything from drawing patterns on her back to pouring honey on her and licking it off. Fruit, vegetables, ice and feathers are all handy props; hot candle wax and permanent dye are a no no. ( Why not hot wax ? Pain is good when its wanted :D )

32) SLAPPING YOUR STOMACH AGAINST HERS.
There is no less erotic noise. It's as sexy as a belching contest.

33) ARRANGING HER IN STUPID POSES.
If she wants to do advanced yoga in bed, fine, but unless she's a Romanian gymnast, don't get too ambitious. Ask yourself if you want a sexual partner with snapped hamstrings.

34) LOOKING FOR HER PROSTATE.
Read this carefully: Anal stimulation feels good for men because they have a prostate. Women don't.

35) GIVING LOVE BITES.
It is highly erotic to exert some gentle suction on the sides of the neck, if you do it carefully. No woman wants to have to wear turtlenecks and jaunty scarves for weeks on end.

36) BARKING INSTRUCTIONS.
Don't shout encouragement like a coach with a megaphone. It's not a big turn-on.

37) TALKING DIRTY.
It makes you sound like a lonely magazine editor calling a 1-900 line. If she likes nasty talk, she'll let you know

38) NOT CARING WHETHER SHE COMES.
You have to finish the job. Keep on trying until you get it right, and she might even do the same for you.

39) SQUASHING HER.
Men generally weigh more than women, so if you lie on her a bit too heavily, she will turn blue.

40) THANKING HER.
Never thank a woman for having sex with you. Your bedroom is not a soup kitchen.

Wtf, i fucking dig this song right now.. heck, i dunno why.
the meaning got me. lol




Bonnie Bailey - Ever After [Eric's Beach Mix](6:36)

Three years ago, my journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my raising guide in the dark
Just no win with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction
I found my second value and breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godly
I fell all for, your imperfections

And now it's like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like were floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and all the perfect kind
A real massive beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions, volcanic eruptions
We both still care, so it’s still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you; I want to make it right

And now it's like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

And now it's like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

And now it's like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

And now it's like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together eye to eye through the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain't no pourin', in this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you...



~Change is coming
sooner or later. LOL